Ever since my last appointment with Dr. M, I feel as if a weight has lifted off my shoulders. Granted, I'm not in the clear just yet, since I still have to check for hyperplasia in February (and I'm not even pregnant yet), but doc's percentages that the hyperplasia will clear up (99%!!!!) are very very reassuring. And, somehow, I just know that my prayers to God will be answered and it will be gone. So, with that being said, I guess I just feel a huge sense of relief knowing and believing that we have found the problem that caused my miscarriages and have fixed it and that I may go through my next pregnancy normally, with little fear of miscarriage. It's been a rough six months since my first BFP till now. But I'm feeling good and am expecting only good things for next year. It's amazing how much pregnancy and getting pregnant has consumed my mind as of late. Dont get me wrong, it's still a huge priority and an ever present factor in my life, but I feel as if I can go back to how I once was before this journey began. I will never be the same, but I can now find joy in other things in my life without the pain of not having children yet affecting it (very much). Of course, I still wish and yearn for my future child(ren). I would love to be spending this Christmas with a little one in my belly and planning for his or her birth. But I'm feeling optimistic that I'll get to experience that soon. Call me naieve, call me crazy, call me overly confident and optimistic, but I'm standing on God's promise, and that's where I've placed my trust.
John, Chapter 15
5"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. 8This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.
My, a lot has happened since I checked in last. I have just learned how to work my reader so I promise to check in much more frequently. I am glad your surgery went well. I am so very happy your spirits have been lifted. Sending up a prayer for 2009 to bring you the blessings you are hoping for.
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