Oh, I'm sooooo excited. Ok, well, that's kind of sad to be excited about surgery, but I am! This means I am that much closer to being able to start TTC and perhaps becoming a mommy!
Of course, I had to call my doctor's office AGAIN today to find out my surgery date. Apparently, Dr. M's assistant was out, so when I called, a temporary assistant was filling in. Luckily she was very nice. She said that my surgery was already scheduled for Thursday, Dec. 11 (howcome no one told me??), but that no pre-operation consult had yet been scheduled, so she went ahead and scheduled the pre-operation consult on Monday Dec. 8.
Well, whew, I feel a little better. I finally have a plan and dates to look forward to. I now need to focus all of my energies on praying that the surgery goes smoothly and that I dont experience any scarring that will affect my ability to get pregnant and carry to term. I've heard about other's horror stories and do not want to experience that.
It's been almost two months since my last MC. I'm definitely feeling a little more at peace with my situation and the fact that we dont have any children yet. I dont pine as much when I see pregnant women and little babies. but I still notice them so much more now than before i started TTC and the Lord knows how much DH and I want children. That feeling has not gone down. I think it's the fact that the holidays are here -- though it's difficult b/c this wont be a holiday filled with babies, it's helping me to keep my mind occupied on the holiday rather than on my losses.
I told my extended family about my situation (2 m/cs and the fiborid) during the thanksgiving break. They were all very supportive and in fact, I learned that one of my aunties had had two miscarriages inbetween her first and second child due to fibroids. She went on to have four children total, then had to have a hysterectomy due to the fibroids. That gives me some hope. I'm glad I shared the story with them. I find that it's helpful to be able to express the person I truly am instead of having to hide it. And as discovered via my aunty's situation, I'm not alone in my plight. Perhaps, i'll think about telling some of my friends who do not know yet....ah well, maybe not....I guess when the time feels right, I will.
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ReplyDeleteI am so happy for you!! I have been thinking of you a lot the last few days wondering how things were going on the surgery scheduling thing. I just wanted to say I will keep praying for a sucessful and easy procdure!! Hang in there !I know it's not going to be long before you post here that you are expecting again!
Yay! I'm glad you finally were able to schedule your surgery. I hope everything goes well. I'll be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteYay! I am so glad this stress is gone. Sometimes you just need something to hang your hat on. And it is soon, I am glad you dont have a long wait.
ReplyDeleteWe have also been telling people about the infertility lately and it has been kind of releasing. I was so scared people would judge me but they have all been really supportive.
Prayers and more prayers!
I will certainly be thinking of you next Thursday. Everything will so smoothly and you will be trying in no time. I remember fearing all of what could happen with surgery and the only thing I could do was put trust in my body and my doctor....easier said than done, I know.
ReplyDeleteI waited such a long time before we told people about our losses and upcoming surgery and after wards, I was really happy I was more genuine and authentic with what I am going through. It was a good feeling.
Hang in there. Healing and moving forward are on their way!