Good news and bad news about the surgery, mostly good news:

Yesterday’s surgery was relatively a success. The doctor went in and did what he needed to do. He indicated that what we thought was a 2cm fibroid, ended up being a subseptate uterus. (See pic below...the white is the uterine cavity, the pointy black thing is a septate and no this is not my uterus).

In other words, my utering cavity was more shaped like a heart rather than the upside down triagle it should be. He also stated that the base of the septate (the part sticking into the uterus that should not be there) was fairly broad, which showed up on the HSG (the ultrasound) as what appeared to be a fibroid. The doctor was able to remove the septate and restore my uterus cavity back to a more normal appearance. He also found what he described as a fluffly fibrous menstrual lining on the left side of my uterus and performed a curettage, scraping out this lining as well.

They sent all tissue to a lab to be checked for cancer. This fluffly lining returned back as hyperplasia, which is thickened and excessive growth of the uterus lining. (here's a link with more info: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Endometrial_hyperplasia). Hyperplasia is also known to cause spotting in between periods, cause miscarriages and prevent pregnancy. I had recently begun spotting since my last period and feeling a little bit of pressure in my uterus, which we thought was due to the fibroid (those are common symptoms of the type of fibroid I have). Since I did not actually have a fibroid, he said the hyperplasia was the cause of the spotting and pressure. He said that hyperplasia, if left untreated, can become cancerous. We already removed the hyperplasia, but to prevent its return, my treatment options are either birth control pills or progesterone. He had already prescribed me one month of birth control pills to help reduce any chance of scarring in the uterus (which could also prevent pregnancy). Because I had the hyperplasia, he said I should stay on the pills for three months, instead of the one. He also wants to do a biopsy after three months to make sure the hyperplasia didn’t come back.

Physically, I’m feeling fine. I had some bleeding yesterday, after the surgery, and today, the bleeding has been very very light. The cramping is very minimal. For instance, on a pain scale of 1-10, I’d say it was a 2 at best. I was able to return to work for a full day the very next day.
So, while this was a successful surgery, my hopes of trying to get pregnant and become pregnant are extended by another month or so, till March (I knew I’d have to wait at least two months before trying after the surgery anyways). There is also a chance of the hyperplasia returning, but I’m thinking it’s not likely. I’m still continuing to pray (as I have been about everything going smoothly) and I have faith that everything will turn out alright. I still have hopes and have the utmost faith that I will become a mom someday soon, perhaps by the end of next year!!

On an interesting note, I actually woke up during the surgery. I didn’t feel any pain, but could feel something going on down there. I couldn’t see the doctor though, because a sheet was between us. I remember looking at the monitor and asking them to bring my glasses so I could watch (the doctor used a hysteroscope to see what he was doing during the surgery and used the monitor to see what he was doing). They must have put me back out, because the next thing I remember is waking up while they were wheeling me to the recovery room. The anesthesiologist said I was cute because I kept asking for my glasses. Lol. I’m so intrigued with learning all about my condition, I guess, despite being heavily sedated and being queasy with blood, I still wanted to learn and to see what was going on.

Stay tuned for more, on the trials and tribulations of my journey to motherhood!

I HAVE A SURGERY DATE!!!!

Oh, I'm sooooo excited. Ok, well, that's kind of sad to be excited about surgery, but I am! This means I am that much closer to being able to start TTC and perhaps becoming a mommy!

Of course, I had to call my doctor's office AGAIN today to find out my surgery date. Apparently, Dr. M's assistant was out, so when I called, a temporary assistant was filling in. Luckily she was very nice. She said that my surgery was already scheduled for Thursday, Dec. 11 (howcome no one told me??), but that no pre-operation consult had yet been scheduled, so she went ahead and scheduled the pre-operation consult on Monday Dec. 8.

Well, whew, I feel a little better. I finally have a plan and dates to look forward to. I now need to focus all of my energies on praying that the surgery goes smoothly and that I dont experience any scarring that will affect my ability to get pregnant and carry to term. I've heard about other's horror stories and do not want to experience that.

It's been almost two months since my last MC. I'm definitely feeling a little more at peace with my situation and the fact that we dont have any children yet. I dont pine as much when I see pregnant women and little babies. but I still notice them so much more now than before i started TTC and the Lord knows how much DH and I want children. That feeling has not gone down. I think it's the fact that the holidays are here -- though it's difficult b/c this wont be a holiday filled with babies, it's helping me to keep my mind occupied on the holiday rather than on my losses.

I told my extended family about my situation (2 m/cs and the fiborid) during the thanksgiving break. They were all very supportive and in fact, I learned that one of my aunties had had two miscarriages inbetween her first and second child due to fibroids. She went on to have four children total, then had to have a hysterectomy due to the fibroids. That gives me some hope. I'm glad I shared the story with them. I find that it's helpful to be able to express the person I truly am instead of having to hide it. And as discovered via my aunty's situation, I'm not alone in my plight. Perhaps, i'll think about telling some of my friends who do not know yet....ah well, maybe not....I guess when the time feels right, I will.