So after posting this morning, I went to the bathroom and noticed some brown discharge on my panties. However, when I wiped, there was nothing on the TP. Each time I went to the bathroom afterwards, I got nervous to look down, but all is the same...nothing. Was the brown discharge just a fluke (nothing smelly either...sorry if this is too graphic)? Since then, I've gotten myself into a smally tizzy...wondering if all is ok in there, analyzing every little twinge and cramp. Ugh! I really want to get a doppler so I can check for a heartbeat on my own, but at the same time I'm terrifed to go get one because what if I cannot find the heartbeat? Sometimes ignorance is bliss...and I'm not sure if this ignorance is blissful.
It's 15 more days till my next appointment. I'm trying to hold out till then. I called the DH and he helped reassure me that all is going ok and that we dont need a doppler (and financially we really shouldn't be spending money on that). It would be helpful if I knew someone that had one b/c maybe I could just go over and check myself out.
I've thought about calling the doctor's office, but I'm not sure what to say or what they'll say or do that can help. You think they'll let me come in just for a check? I'm sure they get worried moms calling in all the time and simply say if there's no bleeding or pain that all is well. Maybe I'll send an email over. This worry cant be good for baby....(though I think the worry level is ok, not unhealthy at this point). Maybe they will let me come in sooner.....
I think this anxiety comes from starting to tell so many people about the pregnancy. (Went to a wedding yesterday where the pregnancy was a hot topic with the gang). It's really starting to set in that we're pregnant, yet, I dont feel pregnant (except for Saturday, where I was having a tough pregancy day) and dont really look pregnant (still just looking fat). I'm working hard to stand on my faith in God that all is well down there. It's tough, but i'm trying. Oh that's the other thing... I'm trying to practice what I preach and walk by faith and not by sight, and it doesn't help if I cannot even stand on my faith that all is well and need the wordly reassurance of hearing the baby's heartbeat to keep me going. Now that's not really having much faith at all, isn't it?
Ack, get me out of this funk! I thought 2nd trimester was supposed to be a breeze?
B:
ReplyDeleteTake a deep breath...relax... remember that God is looking out for both you and your little one and then... call your doctor. You are a first time mommy and your doctor knows your situation. They are not going to think you are being too paranoid, or over cautious. If anything, a good doctor will have you come in, because reassuring Mom, ensures that baby is doing good amd then you can relax and continue to enjoy being pregnant. As always I am praying and keeping you and your little one in my thoughts. *Hugs*
B Mom
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that IF i still sticking with you and making making you worry :(
I heard ( have no idea to truth of it) that a regular stethescope you can hear the heart beat and it would be cheaper...i want to comment more but sense my computer dying so i better hit send
Remember brown is OLD--the cause of an irritated cervix perhaps.
ReplyDeleteRed, cramps, fever, and gushing are to be worrisome.
It could have even been clear at the time of discharge (remember you have more while pregnant) then from just "sitting" and mingling with skin cells it turned a little brown.
I'm sure all is well with baby--who by the way do we have a nick name yet?
A little brown discharge, while unnerving, is probably nothing to worry about since the amount is not increasing and it was just that one time. Many normal, to term, ending with big, healthy babies pregnancies have some discharge. Calling the doc's office to check is perfectly ok to do any time you feel unsure. They deal with new mom's hourly (sometimes by the minute) and should be happy to offer you the reassurance you need. Don't be ashamed of your worry...it means you are a wonderful mommy already.
ReplyDeleteI just love your belly pic. I think you may have this anxiety until you actually hold that baby in your arms. (wink)
ReplyDeleteTake care
There's not a lot that I can say to bring you a lot of reassurance in this situation, because it's a legitimately scary experience. But know that I'm praying for you and this child. Take care!
ReplyDeleteWell if this helps ease your mind, I have read that starting in the 2nd trimester for most women it is very common to have a lot of changes in CM. Sometimes so much that they have to wear a panty liner. I wouldnt worry since it was brown and you havent had anymore. Although I will tell you if you call the nurse she will reassure you that all should be ok, but they will probably say you can come in just to be checked because they would rather be safe than sorry. At least, every time I have called with something, they have said I could come in. But I'm sure its nothing...just CM changes is my guess! Calm yourself down! :) I'll be praying for some peace to be sent your way!
ReplyDeletesending you a hug B....I know things are fine. Hang in there. that baby is growing every day, you will feel him/her soon.
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