just past 7 weeks

It seems as if time is going by much quicker this pregnancy. Next monday, I will have an ultrasound which will determine whether this pregnancy is viable or not. While this pregnancy is a lot less anxiety filled compared to my first, i admit that there are brief moments of nerves. Most of the time, I feel completely normal and dont feel pregnant at all. On some occasions, i feel slight nausea. However, over the weekend, I began feeling real nausea. On Sunday, DH and I went to go check out a garage sale at about 10 am and on the drive back down, I felt soooooo sick. It was the most nauscious I've been in a while. Like a really bad hangover and you dont want to make any sudden moves or look anywhere. No throwing up, but definite feelings of gagginess. The other really big symptom I have is fatigue. i feel really tired often, like I dont have energy to do anything but lie around. The fatigue has sort of gotten in the way of our move into our new home, but thankfully, DH is stepping up and taking on the majority of the work. He also let me take a much needed nap on the weekend by taking kaua for a walk and pretty much doing lots of the house work. This fatigue is new to me. I dont remember feeling this tired with kaua.

On the telling people front, I've told two of my close friends about this pregnancy. One b/c she told me about another friend's pregnancy who will also be having their second child and whos due date is very very close to this EDD. Their first child is also 1.5 months younger than Kaua so I felt compelled to tell her due to the similarities and because we are so close. The other friend I told last night while at her birthday dinner at a bar, because I thought she would be astute and figure it out when i asked for that virgin drink. However, when I told her, she thought it was because I was still BFing and wouldn't have been none the wiser if I didn't say anything. The good news is both of these girls know my history, have children of their own, and know what its like to not really want to share the news until you confirm the pregnancy with the doctor.

I'm a little worried about how my Christmas eve will go. We'll be spending it with my side of the family that are drinkers and know me as a drinker, and while i've been able to get away with not drinking on two other occasions, i think they'll figure it out on Christmas eve when its been the 3rd time we've been together and I haven't been drinking. Part of me is thinking I should just fess up and say what I've been saying to my two friends, -- that I missed my period, I could be pregnant, but I dont know yet b/c I haven't gone to the doctors. That's actually the truth.

Anyways, I'm not sure what I'm going to do, but i do think it'll look pretty weird if I fake drink on Christmas eve, only to announce a week or so later that I'm pregnant. Uh oh, kaua is up....gotta go get him.