Today, i'm having a little tough spell.....i'm so envious of people who have gotten their bfps or are on their way to becoming a mom soon and so down about my own situation. i'm surrounded by people, both virtual and real life, who are pregnant. my brother is expecting his youngest child to be born this weekend. it is the same weekend as the 5th birthday party for his oldest child. of course i'll be in attendance to help out. and my nephew is very important to me. however, i'm just sooooo sooooooo sad that i dont even have one child, or even a pregnancy to show, while my brother is expecting his 3rd child to be born. i'm also attending the 1st year birthday party for one of my cousin's daughters this weekend. She also has a second daughter (born less than one year after her first daughter). And finally, I'm attending the funeral of one of my best friend's father. My best friend has two children and is expecting her third in June. It's amazing. there are babies everywhere...even here, in IF land (thank God for that though). And yet, here I am, still not pregnant and not even able to try. i'm prepared to be bombarded ith questions of - "so when are you going to have kids" and the awkward response I'll have to come up with. they change frequently, depending on my mood and who is asking -- usually the response is "i dont know, soon perhaps". but inside, I sigh a little and am wistful that soon I wont have to say that and will instead be able to say my due date.
February 13 cannot get here fast enough. I'm so ready to start TTC. I'm so ready to be pregnant. I'm so ready to be a mom. =(
My heart is heavy.
OMG I swear I could have written this post today! Actually I intend to soon after checking every one elses blogs to see whats going on ;) I am so sorry you feel so sad today! Sadly we all know the feeling to well, even though I know that doesnt help. You are so in my thoughts and prayers and praying your time will come and you will be pregnant soon!
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OMG I swear I could have written this post today! Actually I intend to soon after checking every one elses blogs to see whats going on ;) I am so sorry you feel so sad today! Sadly we all know the feeling to well, even though I know that doesnt help. You are so in my thoughts and prayers and praying your time will come and you will be pregnant soon!
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That sounds like a pretty overwhelming time. I'm sorry you're having to be bombarded like that. I know it can be tough. The questions can be overwhelming as well. One of my usual responses is "whenever God gives us children." That has a tendency to quiet people. I know that deep desire of your heart because mine aches in the same way. You'll be in my prayers. I hope you have a good weekend in spite of it all.
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Waiting is hard. I'm so sorry. I hope your time comes soon!!! Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that you're having such a tough time. I know it must be rough. I'm in the same kind of mood today. I feel like I'm never going to get pregnant, and that I'm never going to be a mommy. Honestly, I'm actually thinking about throwing the towel in for a while. I'm just sick of it all. I'm so sorry that you're having all of these unexpected issues... I know you're having a much rougher time than most. February 13th will be here before you know it... and I'll be thinking of you. I wanted to share my favorite verse: ["For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13.
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ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to what you are saying. In fact, my second last posting was about all of my friends becoming pregnant and having babies at the same time.
I'll be following your post and I hope that it works out for you!
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Im so sorry youre feeling so down!!! I know exactly what you mean! I will be praying for strength for you in the coming weeks to get you through all of this and get you through to Feb 13th! Your time IS COMING!!!
ReplyDeleteB- i have been feeling the same feelings, well I am know i am now waiting to TTC like you, but the wait for a BFP is terrible. and the guilt that i feel when i feel jealous of someone else is bad.....i am not catholic, but the guilt tears me up. i know i am happy for anyone able to carry a baby to term because of what a miracle it is....i am just sad for me, you and all my friends here and everywhere! ((HUGS))
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