Secret's out!

Well, my secret is out at work!!! Ack! Way before I intended it to be.

It all started because the regular gang I have lunch with (several members of our staff) asked me about my co-worker/colleague (she and I are the only two in our company of the same position) (whom I've described before as finding out she was pregnant with #2 just before I found out about my own pregnancy). I had been given blessings from my co-worker friend to tell the lunch gang people if ever asked, so I admitted with excitement that yes, she was pregnant and due in late October or early November. The conversation stayed on her and how they had had their notions of her pregnancy and were glad to confirm it.

However, the conversation then veered to questions of when I was going to start having kids, but I dodged the question like I normally do. But they must have sensed my dodgy-ness because they pressured me on and continued talking about it. Then they started joking around saying that it would be funny if I was pregnant too and both my co-worker and I were out at the same time, and the whole time I was laughing along and trying to be non-chalant about it (while dying inside because they were so right). Finally, one of them called me on my lack of concrete answers and direclty asked me straight out if I was pregnant too. And of course, my smile couldn't be contained and I couldn't straight out lie....and so the secret was out!!!

They were all so excited for me and hugged me and wished me well. (I'm one of the youngest in the enitre office and they were there for my engagement and marriage.) They asked when I was due and how far along I was and blah, blah, blah. I told them I hadn't told my bosses yet (yup, I have bosses....) and that they needed to keep this under wraps until I get back from my trip where I will tell the bossdes after my first trimester. (Man oh man are the bosses going to love it that both me and my co-worker will be out around the same time, but that's a whole other story). Just then, our office manager walked in to the lunchroom, and so we changed the subject.

I'm terrified that the secret is out! They dont know about my two prior losses. It'll be devastating if I have to retract my pregnancy to my working lunch gang.....but I'm going to think positive. I will NOT have to retract my pregnancy news. I will give birth to a healthy perfect child this December! I believe I receive!