amazing to think...

Whenever I look at Kaua, I'm amazed to think that this little being, this handsome little boy was in my belly just 2.5 months ago. I've been waiting for him for 9 months, and even longer if you count when we first started trying to have a baby in 2008. And he's here. He's the one that I used to talk to while he was in my belly when I was driving to and from work in my car. He's the one DH and I would wonder about: who he'd look like, what he'd be like. He's the one that DH would sing silly songs to, while squooshing his face up to my belly so that everything he said came out all muffled. Well, he's here! His name is Kaua and he's growing up, right before my eyes! How cool is that?

Tonight, putting Kaua down to bed was rougher than usual. He was fussy and couldn't get settled. I confess, he falls asleep at my nipple. (Super bad, I know, but hey, it works). But this time, that wasn't working. I next tried the pacifier, that didn't work. I stood up and rocked him, I burped him, I put him in the baby carrier and walked around with him and none of it would work. For over an hour, I tried to get him to sleep, and nope, he wasn't having it. I could tell he was tired, it was his bed time, he was rubing his eyes a lot and the type of fussing he made were all clear signs of tiredness, but nothing was working. I could feel the frustration building in me and realized that this was probably how shaken baby syndrome started....of course I didn't go there, I would never, but I can see how people can become frustrated. I reminded myself to be patient. I was. Eventually, I tried the pacifier again. This time it worked. After just 1 minute of sucking, he was out. Laughing in his dreams. (Yup, he laughs in his dreams. How cool is that?). Whew, finally! I love this little boy. He is teaching me all kinds of patience.